Time for You to Think Outside the Box?

Remember how you used to discuss everything together? Whether you agreed with each other or not is not the point here. The point is that you are used to having that “second opinion” and that “other viewpoint” weigh in on nearly every aspect of your life! (Okay, so they weren’t invited to the tampon selection party back in the day, but you get the gist.)

Thinking alone is hard. It just is so I won’t sugar-coat it. And, I think you are TOTALLY capable of making great decisions, so I don’t think you should be afraid to make decisions on your own.  You’re a smart gal, always have been.

What I’m trying to say is that in order to move forward in your life you have to begin to think outside your internal box. The box that says, “We always did it this way” should probably go out with the trash. Because the thing is, a lot of the mutual decisions you made were made that way to please someone else. And, that someone else isn’t here now. There’s also the fact that your circumstances have changed, literally.

You may not need that man cave or second slot in the garage. Maybe you don’t need to invest in the country club if the one who loved to golf twice a week isn’t here to golf anymore. (But hey, if you’re the golfer, keep it up!)

I know you can and will make great decisions as long as you don’t spend too much time in circular thinking. That’s where you think in circles about something and always end up in the same place: nowhere new.

It’s easy to give into this type of thinking. That little “devil’s advocate” that lives inside you starts blathering away with their fiendish little “but what about this” and “but what if that happens” monologue. One minute the little devil is on the side of buying that new SUV and 20 seconds later (or less) they’re on the side of keeping the 2010 Camry. That’s where the second voice always came in handy, right?

So what to do now…

Well, you can use a piece of paper and your own wits to sort things out. Take a pencil (I like one with a fresh eraser) and paper. Draw a horizontal line across the top and a vertical line down the middle. Now at the top of the paper put the decision “New Car.” The put “pros” on one side of the vertical line and “cons” on the other. You know what comes now. You begin to write down the real points of the issue. When you finish, one line is going to be longer than the other. Add up both sides just to be sure. Declare a winner and make the decision.

You can use this technique for almost any decision you have. It’s so much easier than asking the relative who’s still driving the 1998 Accord or the friend who trades their car in every year. Plus, making your own decisions is very empowering! It’s just another way to build a strong relationship with yourself AND it will help you take good care of yourself which is really important, since you’re the only one doing that now!

Here’s to thinking outside the box! I know you can do it! You’ve got this! And if you need a little help, let’s talk about how the Widows Recovery System can benefit you!


Help Chapel Hill Learn More About Widowed Parents

Dr. Yopp (second from left) and the Widowed Parent team
at UNC Chapel Hill’s Comprehensive Cancer Support Center

Sometimes we meet people who are traveling a parallel path to our own. We think we’re the only one who is passionate about a particular issue and then meet another who is equally passionate about it!

I had one of those aligned meetings today with a psychologist who deeply cares about widowed persons. His name is Dr. Justin Yopp and he’s part of a dedicated team of research psychiatrists and psychologists at The Widowed Parent project, which is housed at the North Carolina Cancer Hospital and the Lineberger Comprehensive Cancer Center of the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill. Dr. Yopp and his colleagues have been studying widowhood for eight years now and have come to realize that widowhood is a different beast than other types of grief. They published a book about it last year called The Group. The book chronicles the lives of men in their widowers support group.

Dr. Yopp and his colleagues have been surveying widowed parents with children still living in the home to better understand their challenges and devise ways to help them (and their children) cope. They need your help to learn more about widowed women!

So, if you’re a widowed woman with dependent children and lost your spouse less than three years ago, please take a few minutes of your time to help the folks at the med school learn more about what our lives are like.

Click here to take the survey and help their research!

There are so many of us struggling to recover our lives. I’m doing my part to help with retreats and the Widows Recovery System, and I’m grateful to Dr. Yopp and the Widowed Parent team for understanding that widowhood is not your ordinary grief beast. It’s a raging monster that tears apart every single aspect of your life and deeply affects the life of your child.

If I could wish upon a star, I’d wish that all hospitals, hospices, and medical schools would not only understand the comprehensive and life-changing challenges of widowhood but also be committed to providing healing retreats and recovery resources designed specifically for the widowed! Add your wish upon a star to mine and, who knows, maybe our wishes will come true!

Coming Out from Under the Covers

When something really bad happens to you (like widowhood, for instance) it’s really tempting to go under the covers and stay there for a while. In fact, I don’t think this is a bad strategy, in the scheme of things. Sure beats sitting around listening to other people  tell you what you should do, must do, and so on when whatever it is (like widowhood, for instance) hasn’t happened to them.

Have you ever noticed how much smarter other people get when it’s time for them to solve your problems? Seriously, there they are, muddling through their less-than-stellar lives, bumbling along, confused and stressed out, just like everyone else UNTIL you mention how overwhelming your feelings are (because you’re facing widowhood head on, for instance) and you make the mistake of stopping to take a breath and TA DAH! said persons suddenly leap into your life to try and FIX YOU.

Too bad that doesn’t ever work, right? I mean, why spend all that useless time on personal development and internal skill-sets when you could just let someone who hasn’t done what you are trying so desperately to do fix you? It’s laughable, really, and yet their “help” can keep you from coming out from under the covers and putting on your big-girl pants.

Sometimes these well-meaning people can make you feel like a failure before you’ve even taken one step forward. Just because you say, “I don’t know if I should _____ or ____ ” doesn’t mean you won’t figure it out. It doesn’t mean you won’t find the answer that’s right for you! All that question means is that you are aware of the fact that you have choices.

Choices are good things. Choices are brain-judo you do in the safety of your home gym. The contemplation of choices is essential to the act of crawling out from under the covers after the unthinkable happens. And YOU are the only person who knows which one of those choices is the right one for you, right now. (That’s the cool thing about considering your options, most things are reversible. More on that in another blog.)

So bravo on you for being brave enough to come out from under the covers! Instead of letting someone try to “fix” you, ask yourself cool, contemplative questions, like, “I wonder what it would look like to ___________.” Yeah, that’s the ticket. Because Helen Keller was right, “Life is a grand adventure, or it’s nothing.”

Need a little help peeping out into your new world? Use your free call to find out more about the Widows Recovery System.


Surviving Labor Day

Here comes another holiday weekend. The Widows Nightmare. The family cook out or camp out or boating trip. Everyone’s together but you.

Even when family invites you along it can be really rough. You’re looking around at other couples feeling very lonely indeed. If your kids are there that can be really dicey, too. You’d think you’d be on the same page but you’re not. You’re grieving different people.

So you have some choices. You can hide out under the covers. You can take a cruise or a trip out of town. Or, you can prepare yourself emotionally for the holiday.  I always like that third choice the best.

Here’s a holiday preparation technique I have found to be very effective. For a few days prior to the holiday event,  spend about 10 minutes focusing on yours inward self, become inwardly quiet and aware of what you am feeling. Close your eyes gently, and focus on your breath, allowing the emotions you are feeling to float to the surface. As the emotions arise, breathe them out as you exhale. Now focus on the holiday. Say quietly to yourself, “I know this might be hard, but I’m going to be okay. People might say the wrong things but they mean well. I am preparing my heart now to be open to having a good time with my family and friends.”

If you try to pretend that the picnic or cookout won’t bring emotions to the surface, you’ll be sabotaged when they do. There is great benefit to “front-loading” your psyche to expect a bit of discomfort but to also reassure yourself that it will all be okay.

When you allow your honest emotions to surface and be acknowledged prior the holiday event, you’ve prepared your mind and your heart for success.

Happy Labor Day. Enjoy yourself! And remember that every moment of your life is a gift! That’s one of the lessons you’ve learned from death.


Take Time to Breathe

Summer has come to a close and there’s a busy-ness that is starting to show up. Back to school sales, meet the teacher nights, new work expectations, and all this as the days grow shorter. Times like these can feel so hectic that stress is never far away!

When things get hectic it’s time to get quiet. It’s only by finding your quiet center and acknowledging the energies that are rotating within you that you find the calm and peace you so want and deserve.

Here’s a new healing mediation made just for you to do exactly that. May peace always be yours.

I Don’t Ever Want to Forget Them!

“I don’t want to ever forget who we were to each other,” a widow said in a retreat recently. And I want to reassure right now that, no matter what happens, if you start dating again or remarry, you will never forget who you were to each other.

Your love and marriage to your spouse is indelibly part of your life. It was part of who you were when they were alive and it’s part of who you are now and it will always be a part of who the day you die. Our union with another soul is just that powerful. You have memories wrapped around it that will always remain. And you will find, as time goes on, that most of them are really good.

Initially after the death, we’re often overwhelmed by the exhaustion of the experience, too numb to feel much of anything. And then we enter “gone” which is really different from dead. Dead is where they bury your spouse. Gone is where you realize, day after day, that they’re never coming back. I think this is why many widows say the second year is actually the hardest. Kind of like the terrible twos little kids experience, it usually comes with a lot of emotional volatility.

Trying to rebuild your own life, the one you’re left to lead on your own now, in no way devalues your life with your spouse. The fact that you are trying to live a happy, healthy live is nothing to be ashamed of or to feel embarrassed about. If your spouse were able to talk to you, they’d say, “Go for it honey, I want you to be happy again!”

But just we aware that some folks won’t think you should do that. About a year after my husband died, I was in the grocery store. I’d just finished listening to “It’s a Wonderful World” in the car and I was smiling and humming the tune. And a woman that I only vaguely recognized came up and said, “What are you smiling about? Didn’t your husband just die?” Well, that shut down the humming for sure.

How dare she! How dare she judge that moment of happiness that came from listening to a great song about life. I had one of those dialogues inside my head, you know the ones! “Well just come sit with me tonight while I eat my supper alone with Tom Brokaw. And the night after that and the night after that and the night after that. B…H.”

Don’t do that to yourself. Don’t judge yourself for wanting to be happy and healthy. Your life is up to you now and you deserve all the happiness you can get! And, no matter how happy your life becomes from this moment on it will NEVER take away the love you felt for your spouse. What you had together will always be a part of you. So don’t fear or regret wanting to have a life worth living now.

Just Stop!

If you avoid thinking about what you’re afraid of in this new life alone, you’ll just sabotage yourself. It’s really not very kind to you to do this!

There’s another way and that’s to name some fears and then use a release technique (I like the STOP technique by Harvard psychologist Dr. Rudolph Tanzi.) to let go of the nervous energy you have gathered around each concern.

Want to try it? Here’s how:

Over a week-long period, name a fear from this list and then use the STOP practice immediately after you write each it down. Each named fear should have its own STOP practice. If you find that some of these fears are deeper than others, repeat the STOP as many days as you need to feel release, looking deeper each time at what you are feeling. ;

S: Just stop
T: Take 3 deep breaths
O: Observe how you are feeling
P: Proceed with awareness

Now, look at your fears regarding these areas of your life. Acknowledge them and apply the STOP technique as soon as you write them down:


I am afraid that ___________________________________________________________________________________.STOP


I am afraid that ___________________________________________________________________________________STOP


I am afraid that: __________________________________________________________________STOP


I am afraid that __________________________________________________________________. STOP

Understanding that the changes you face in almost every aspect of your life as a widow require a calm mind is an important realization. Don’t let fear overwhelm you. Face it head on with exercises like this. The Widows Recovery System offers ideas like this on a weekly basis and gives you the support you need to move forward. You can do it, I can help!

Learn more about the Widows Recovery System!


Moving Forward

Ever get that frozen feeling? The one where you’re worried that IF you set a new goal for yourself or try to move forward you’ll fail because you’re in this all alone now? This happened to me a lot when I was recovering and it kept me feeling frozen and stuck.

Then I came across some really interesting tips from psychologists at Harvard. The first is that it helps to have a support system, primarily for accountability (well, duh!). But there is also a little formula that they have discovered that makes almost any goal more likely to succeed. It goes by the acronym SMART.

S is for specific. For instance, a goal of “I want to be happy.” Isn’t very specific. But a goal of “I want to take yoga classes twice a week because they make me happy” is.

M stands for measurable. This means if you decide to do yoga twice a week you put it on your calendar!

A is a reminder to make sure it’s an achievable goal. “I want to be happy” is too broad to be achievable in one step. “I want to take 2 yoga classes every week” is achievable. Each achieved goal gives you renewed courage for the next one so this is important!

R stands for realistic. It may seem counterintuitive, but choosing the change you most want to make—like losing weight or being happy—won’t bring as much success as choosing the change
 you’re most confident you’ll be able to make. Focus on sure bets, like eating an additional serving of fruit every day rather than losing weight. Especially when you want to make changes in lots of areas of your life, you want to build on small successes.

T reminds you to set a time commitment. “Starting tomorrow, I’ll add fruit to my breakfast every day for a month to get more fruit in my diet.” Time commitments are another great way to ensure your success.

The SMART technique has helped a lot of widows in the Recovery System succeed in making changes to their lives. It’s a proven system of breaking big goals down into smaller ones so that your success is assured.

Find out if the Widows Recovery System is right for you!

Relax and Catch Your Breath!

Retired hospice bereavement counselor Brian Eckhart has a saying, “When someone you love dies, your brains fall out.” Grief is a complicated thing and it doesn’t end all at once. There are pieces of grief that will always be with us. Grief isn’t something you “get over,” it’s something you learn to live with.

But eventually, grief DOES stop running your life. The time frame for this is different for everyone. Some women feel ready to move forward after six months, others take several years to reach that point of readiness. You begin to think about “normal” things again. You find it’s easier to make decisions, or at least recognize that there are some decisions awaiting your approval.

One of the trickiest things about moving forward is the energy you’ll need. Moving forward takes a lot of energy! How fast you’ll go depends on how much energy you have and how much support and encouragement you receive.

Recovery, like grief, has its own time frame. You can’t rush it or push it. It is wise to honor the fact that you have survived the biggest “life change” of them all – the death of your spouse. Rebuilding your life is not an easy thing, either. You are going to build a new framework for your life, one that honors you and the things you like to do. Some days it will feel like a “one step forward, one step back” kind of process!

It’s very, very easy to get overwhelmed with all the things you think you have to do or want to do or feel you need to do. So, start by using this relaxation exercise developing by Harvard psychologist Herbert Benson. It’s called the relaxation response and it’s simple to do:

Sit comfortably for 5 minutes. Close your eyes. Focus all on your breath. Feel your breath enter your belly and see it leaving your body as you exhale. Each time you exhale, silently say the word “one.” If your mind wanders (and it will try to!) simply return to being aware of your breath and continue to silently say the word “one” on each exhale.

Surviving the Unthinkable

No one asks to be a widow. Remember when John Lennon said, “Life is what happens to you while you are making other plans?“ No one plans to be a widow!

I became a widow in late 2011 after my healthy-as-a-horse, athletic husband of 23 years had a series of massive strokes at age 55 and died. It’s been hard. I’m not going to kid you about that. It has been really hard to take care of all the legal and financial things that have to be done when someone dies. I had to raise our teenage son alone and rebuild my life personally, professionally and financially. But with the right help, it can be done. I did it, Kar- en-Eve did it and we know other widows can, too.

At first, I was shocked and confused about every- thing. (Death does this to you and I still have days where I feel that way!) I was emotionally and phys- ically run-down from taking care of my husband. When your husband dies you get turned inside-out like pants’ pockets on laundry day.

I knew I needed help so I looked for good resources. Being a literate person, I turned to books first.
 If there’s a book about widowhood I probably own it. I found books that groveled in stories of personal tragedy or gave juicy details on the deaths of the rich and famous. From these I learned that everyone eventually dies. No one gets out of here alive. I read another book about rapid remarriage that suggest- ed new lingerie, bikini waxes, tight skirts and high heels as a life strategy. Since the bikini and tight skirt phases of my life were over I couldn’t use these life strategies.

I didn’t want to grovel or take a pill or fall down in high heels. I wanted a program that would support me as I got my life back together. But I couldn’t find one! So I began to research wellness, grieving, positive psychology, dietary support for the immune system, and life rebuilding strategies. I took all the information I found (that was legit and proven to work) and I applied these strategies to my life. And, I recovered and rebuilt my life.

Now, you recover, too, with my hard-won personal knowledge on widowhood, hours of research, and practical ideas that I know work through the Widows Recovery System.

This system is designed to give you the support you need, the practical ideas and information you won’t find elsewhere all in one place, and the personal coaching of a widow who has been there and done that!

You can move through this devastating loss, I believe deeply in the power of you and I want to help you get to the other side! Find out more!